Positive thinking…

… is the key!

I remember the time when I could punch anybody who was telling me that, because it’s so easy to say: cheer up! start thinking positively!

-aghhhhhhrrrrrr was my reply, all that could be at the time….

And this is because you can’t just flick your fingers and change your attitude towards life in a matter of seconds.

It’s a process and again I’m so impatient but I kinda like this process going on because as it unfolds I learn new things about myself.

I was used to so ignorant to say I knew myself, well now I’ve realised I’m not so sure anymore…

I know what I like and what annoys me but still that might change soon too so why set myself boundries I know I might not keep?

All I know now, that what triggers positive thinking is feeling good about yourself, about your body and your health, about your life and your friends. When you start feeling good, feeling happy you’ll start thinking happy – it’s as easy as that but on the other hand it’s very difficult too.

When I was trying to flick my fingers and make myself think positive without a deeper understanding I was constantly going form ups to downs.  I could draw a graph of my month and it would show a sinusoid…

In a longer run it’s really annoying and to people around you start thinking you are behaving manic-depressive 😉

Well I’m not 🙂 and I never was,   just had mood swings which were hard to control.  A single word, smell, sound or anything as simple as that could trigger a mood swing. So I never knew the time or place.

So if it’s so easy to trigger a good mood, why not do it more often??? 🙂

The trick is to avoid those triggers bringing the bad mood, but what’s the mediatation for???

It’s amazing how simply silencing and relaxing of the mind helps in so many ways, how the bad moods simply float away and are replaced with a peaceful feeling of the mind 🙂

LOL it sounds so easy…. and it is!!! The whole idea is not to try too hard and it will work!!!

I hug trees

It still amazes me how simple things can make me happy. The green colour of the grass, the smell of the air after the rain, the sound of the sea, the colours of  the forest in autumn time. I guess for most people these are unnoticeable  being taken for granted…

How it all started

Suddenly today a thought crossed my mind…. I am a child of the Sun!

I really am and it’s not only my imagination. My star sign is Leo, which is a Sun sign but also my attitude to life itself changed lately and I’m heading to greater understanding of myself. One of the dictionaries on the Internet said to me that a Child of the Sun is a person who is:  extremly intellingent, imaginative and perceprive, who thinks she/he can do anything and will succeed…

Why didn’t I think of it earlier???? Life would have been so much simpler!

Anyways, all that made me think… Up until very recently I always thought that life is hard, that it’s always uphill for me…. and guess what, it always was! I never had any luck because I told myself I didn’t have any. Let’s not go down the path whether I thought I deserved it or not, although it might be a good point but I just don;t wanna talk about it at least for now.

Sow what has changed now  you might ask??? Well nothing much except for the way I think and perceive things… Ok, but how did I do it?

The answer is simple, I had to stop and think, I had to calm down, I had to relax, I had to meditate to start observing the changes in my life.

For few past years I had a really stressful life, 8-4 routine which was killing my health and not because I was sitting by the desk all day staring at the computer screen but because I was burnt out mentally exhausted. Stress is a powerful enemy which creeps in silently and destroys your health and peace of mind.  After few years the job made me constantly ill, miserable and unhappy, plus I was in financial trouble ( God only knows why, I was working 14 hrs a day!)

etc. etc..etc…

I think at some point I subconciously started  looking for a way out. First I was so fed up with my work that I just left, second found a new one which gave me time to think and gave my eyes a chance to rest form the computer screen 😉 then I started searching.. .what was it that I really needed??? Well I still haven’t figured that out entirely but I knew right then that most of all I needed to calm myself and get a perspective. The meditation started when I searched for ways to deeply relax my body, to release all the tentions and focus on something, on anything really just to draw my attention away.

So I started with creative visualisation first, this kind of meditation seems to be working best for me. I also practice the “traditional” mantra repeating from time to time but when it lasts too long I just get bored and my mind slowly starts to fill up with all sorts of unrelated thoughts …. But I guess it’s all still to come 🙂 all I know is that it works and it makes me start transforming my way of thinking and my life too 🙂